Sunday, October 7, 2007


One eventful long session is winding up. Like an abandoned warrior, I stand here wounded in the war field deserted and confused. What is next? I tried to retract but I couldn’t. I accepted my break down, but they dragged me in again. Like a red hot funeral pile, a fire ball is burning me into ashes. How do I dispose off that? I am afraid to speak. I can't stand those terrifying dream about City of Graveyards. I hate retaliations. I tried to strike back in the way of truth. But it is not working anymore. Deep sickening silence is everywhere. Can you feel the call of death? Is there a fire storm coming in? I fear I will get engulfed in that. The last glimpse of hope is burned out? Memories are crumbling me in to dust. Trying to keep myself busy, I am dreaming about passing over those dreadful memories for some split seconds.

Whom shall I blame? I wanted to help. But now I am helpless. I gave them my resources. Now I see those in warheads upon me. I recognize those where given in to immature hands. They didn’t recognize why I disclosed them. Why I disclosed them? Was that my signature?

Still I suspect. The battle is over or the fire is there still!!!!

But; I am thinking. In the blood freezing silence thoughts are rising up. What is it? Is that a curse? No I recognize, it is a blessing. The lava inside me is making me stronger; Stronger than ever. I know I am right and I never missed the path. Why am I troubled because the world is diseased? I am not ready to fail and I will never. I am learning. I am learning to walk. My legs won’t tremble anymore. Those red hot fire stones are not hot anymore. Nothing can stop me now. I am the Phoenix…

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Its Time to Move On - Relationships with Reason

Relationships are always there for a reason. May be it can be intentional, sometimes we may fail to realise the existence of a relationship, sometimes even we won't agree such a relationship exists. People come into our life for a reason. It can be for a moment, it can be for a season or it can be for a lifetime. But it is born with some destiny. When we understand which one it is, then we will know why it is born and ultimately we will be knowing what should be done for that person.

Realizing relationships is not a great challenge. The real question lies in distinguishing why it is there for. When someone is there in our life for a reason, it is usually to fulfill our needs. The need we expressed to someone or somewhere. Sometimes somebody may be feeling we are in need. They have come to assist us through a difficulty, to provide us with guidance and support, to aid us physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like an Angel and they are. They are there for the reason we need them to be.

Some people come into our life for a season, because our turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring us an experience of peace or make us laugh. They may teach us something we have never done. They usually give us an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season. During our lifetime, relationships teach us lessons, things we must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Our job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what we have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of our life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Then one day, suddenly without any wrongdoing on our part or at an inconvenient time, these persons will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they just cease living. Sometimes they just walk away from our life and memories. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. Then we will realise that the prayer we sent up has been answered and that it is the time to move on. Just accept and remember their importance in life and be thankful to them for being the part of our life, whether they were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Again, one another day we may see someone peeping into our life. Then, we will recognize that someone is in need of us or someone is there for us.

I am thankful to Genson and one unnamed friend for the ideas, basic scripts, life exposure and inspiration for getting me prepared to compose these wonderful words.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

King of Bribery

When country is India this can also happen. People can even bribe Mr. Almighty!!! Upon the offer of one single Chapel itself he is flat???

Let the core story be my own secret!!! I am realizing, what I asked is decided for me. From that day I offered him a chapel, things began to change. Everything comes in my way. Wherever I go, I am flooded with clues. Boundaries don’t matter, Localities doesn’t matter, and even States are not a barrier!!! I felt lost, but now I recognize it got closer! Hah! If you fall in the circle then you already having a glowing bulb in your head hehe!!! I remember my reference to the main hero that, I am having a strong feeling like this!!! And today it happened for him only!!! Isn’t? Yeah!

He cares about my queries. Somewhere I became his toy and then the playgroud is given to me. A mutual understanding we used with!! Just like a good friend, my well-wisher. But this time I didn’t asked him. Even this moment I am unsure, what is good for me. It felt better when I asked for what he feels favorable for me. I see that even my mistakes; he is turning into my boon in unimaginable ways. Still…..I suspect. Is that given for me or he is asking me to decide? Is he showing me pros and cons on what I asked?. Or all these he giving into my life for a reason; to get me prepared for the ultimate one????

OK let me be serious about the subject. Today, I had one amazing experience, just like many of the previous incidents, but this time I thought it would be unfair if I don’t express it. But as I told I don’t like the reason to be published as of now.

So, this is the message for everyone who read this story!!!...If somebody bribe the God better keep away. You will never win simply because he is involved!!! You are not ready to fail then offer him a better bribe amount, which means you have to pray more than your friend…hehe. When someone bribes an officer who is the front player? The Officer or your Good Neighbor? Rules don’t change. Dare you play in face with God????

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Friendship - An Isolated Thinking

First of all I would like to pardon all my friends, who were not able to enjoy the beauty of the words above because of the language it is written. This is the one among the mails I gifted from my friends on this Friendship Day (probably the best among them). Also many of my friends would have received the same.

Hmmm... Friendship!!! I am not the one to give definition to this concept (Eh! is that only a concept?.... My failure is sooo pathetic. I couldn't even find the term, what it is?....). Anyway, let me try to think about something....

In the words of some
Philosophers "Friendship is a term used to symbolize co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans."...So far so good, But Ah!, really speaking I am not satisfied with this.....I would like to have some more talks upon this subject. The great ancient Greeks on have traditionally distinguished three notions that can properly be called love: agape, eros, and philia.

Agape is an affection that does not respond to the antecedent value of its object but as a thought to create value in the beloved; it has come through the Christian tradition to mean the sort of love God has for us persons as well as, by extension, our love for God and our love for humankind in general. Eros and Philia are generally understood to be responsive to the merits of their objects—to the beloved's properties, especially his goodness or beauty. The difference is that eros is a kind of passionate desire for an object, typically sexual in nature, whereas philia originally meant a kind of affectionate regard or friendly feeling towards not just one's friends but also possibly towards family members, business partners, and one's country at large.

In philosophical discussions of friendship,
it is ideal to follow Aristotle, friendships of pleasure, of utility, and of virtue. Although it is a bit unclear how to understand these distinctions, the basic idea seems to be that pleasure, utility, and virtue are the reasons we have in these various kinds of relationships for loving our friend.

It basically involve the mutual understanding and co-operation between two persons or a group.

My words, essentially friendship is all about
"Some kind of concern about your friend or friends, a distinctive concern which might reasonably be understood as some kind of love, with some cause...."

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Art of Heart - Food for Thought

Recently I got a mail from one of my friend. The pictures and embedded words inside are too much touching that i decided to put them in my blog.....

Look those evergreen leaves and crystal fresh water droplets....Like the mother nature, heart is like a greenery of life that gives the whole lot for masses.... Like one red rose spreading its fragrance, for a heart flooding with peace, some few dew drops spilling out from them is sufficient to make the whole world a garden.....

Some one refers heart like a symbol of belief, At times, like a rock in hurricane, it hangs to its beliefs disregarding whatever coming across.....One of the sensible representation of heart. It represents feelings and worries in relationships. heart is represented as the symbol of emotional human affairs.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Those eyes - ever never escape from its magic?

Like the one planning suicide, staring into the depths, I kept looking in to her eyes.....

Those magical eyes, which transformed a mischievous school boy to nut poet and valentine

with just one wink, and extruded him into endless courses of chronicle.....

Their sparkles flooded into emptiness of my mind…

Rewording - a simple self work

CourtesyChidambarasmaranakal (Chullikadu)

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Life, Success and Positive Thinking

Life is an adventure with plenty of eventful phases. One will be successful when he or she is one who lives well, laughs often, and adored much, gains respect, lives world better than they can find it. They will never lack appreciation for earth's beauty or fails to look for the best in others or give the best of themselves.

Some events in life bring the joy of fulfilling experience and well being, while others make us pessimistic and contemplative. Both have their own significance in paving the way to our goals. But one thing that keeps unchanging throughout this sojourn is our individual spirit. A spirit that reveals our inner self, a spirit that prepares the way during gains or falls, a spirit that pays back the unique power to defy destiny in our way and motivate us to carve our own footprints in this beautiful universe. This is that motivational spirit that opens up numerous hurdles along the way that help us to reach out in the right place at the right time, where that rendezvous with success is just some steps ahead.

While plotting our lives, we indulge ourselves inside the romance of this fight, and take an attempt to prognosticate about our different exposures, what is going to unfold is just a nutshell. We have the Master Key, the key that gains its power from an array of motivational spirits, which empowers ourselves enough to unlock the mysteries, and that is what life demands from us. After all, virtue lies not only in finding the way, but to walk the path successfully.

By the way, I dedicate this to my good friend who herself indulged in "Pain and Numbness". I feel she deserves this little bit to cheer up.